New beginnings...

So having been single for roughly 48 days, 13 hours, 58 minutes and 15 seconds, or 4,197,495 seconds from the time of this post, and feel that I have kinda started to turn over a new leaf. At first after a break up there is that time where you simply feel the need to fill the void that has been left. And Fill the void I did. That got boring after about 2 weeks, and I started to seek friendship. I moved up here alone. I had Jefferson, whom I now, no longer have, and I had Meech, whom i still have but is in London until march. Both Nareth and Tim live their own lives and are both semi-involved with significant others right now too. So I kinda felt/feel like I am on my own. I have met a couple guys just recently, who have provided stimulating conversation, and just generally a good time. And for this I am thankful.

I got to go to a house party in the hills, and meet some new people and see some old faces, goddamn Jimmy Chen, hahaha, just kidding Jimothy! I had a blast just talking, watching and observing everyone there. Everyone was part of a clicque. I miss having a clique. That reliable group of friends that you know are ALWAYS down to do something. Meech is kinda my clique, but again he has abandoned me for the motherland. Haha.

I should have taken advantage of the situation on Saturday night and introduced myself to Nareth's and David's group of friends, but i guess was had not had enough liquid courage yet. I wanted to be loud and obnoxious and introduce myself by saying:

"Excuse me everyone, I have met you all at least once, but I am Brandon, the gay formerly known as 'John Santos's Ex', and now currently, known as 'Jeff Sheng's Ex'"

Ahhh, I find myself to be humorous...

Anywho, I told Nareth tonight, that I should have introduced myself a long time ago and that I have come to the conclusion that when I am out with someone, I pay attention to them and nothing/nobody else around me. This is a pretty ridiculous character flaw that I possess, and I need to get the hell over. I would have had a lot to fall back on when my relationship ended, if I had made the conscious effort to engage all of Nareth's friends, but instead, it has taken me almost 7 weeks to make these realizations.

I look forward to getting to know a couple of my new-found friends even more! That being said, I guess this holiday season I do have something, albeit small, to be thankful for, new friends and old friends alike! Hahaha, CHEESEY!